• Inspiration,  Mindset,  Reflection

    No expectations & acceptance

    Have you ever reflected over how much expectations from yourself or others affect your life? Do you ever feel limited to change or move on because of a situation or relation? There are so many of us putting ourselves in situations that is limiting for us. And the feeling of being disgruntled seems to cover life as heavy cloud on the mountain top.

    Every single second we become something new… We must let go of our expectations based on the past.

    Expectations

    Even though some situations such as relations tend to make us feel unhappy we seem to be stuck there. We are someway trapped in a status. In a relation maybe, it is called best-friends, marriage, brotherhood or sisterhood. We seem to be stuck because we thought the relation was going to last forever and the changed status of the relation would be considered a failure. In many relationships there are norms and oftentimes written or unwritten rules that create expectations on us.

    Change

    We all know that kids that grow up change, they change in interests, they change in knowledge and develop every day. They even remarkably change in appearance. We accept all this as a natural part of growing up. But, when it comes to “grownups” we seem to expect us to be like Bilbos trolls but instead of turned into stone by daylight we turn into stone by adulthood.

    During all our life, we change. This is something we must accept. We must accept that we are developing. Every single second we become something new. We cannot expect from ourselves not from others to be the same person as one year ago, one month ago or even one second ago. We cannot either know what we will become. We must let go of our expectations based on the past and accept what we become every single second. We must be dynamic.

    That string is being strained and stretched until its breaking point and it hurts.

    Acceptance

    I think therefore it is not always easy to be static in one certain place, in one way of living or to be attached to a certain person. To be able to evolve we have either to surround ourselves with people who has no expectations and accept the way we are and what we become. Or else there will be friction and tension creating a struggle.

    The whole world is ever changing and for me being attached to something or someone can be compared to a thin piece of string that is a hinder from change. That string is being strained and stretched until its breaking point and it hurts. Sometimes we even let the string completely hinder us to become what we could be. We have to cut of this string, be responsive and understand the signs that are everywhere and follow them as they invite us to something new. The signs are everywhere but sometimes so hard to see because we are tied by the string holding us back not accepting the world of change.

    Find a way

    I believe in living without this string, being free, without expectations. Then, nothing need to be forced, I just need to accept what I cannot change. I believe in living every second, being responsive, taking one step after the other and find my way.

    Free life & freediving

    I write about this as a reflection of my thoughts and a comparison to freediving. How I approach freediving oftentimes seems to work as way of approaching life itself. Many times, I have learned to approach life through my experiences from freediving. This issue is nothing different. It can be compared to dive.

    Drop your expectations. Approach your dive and accept what happens

    Every moment the situation in a dive is changing. From the countdown to officical top until I am above the surface again. How I perceive a dive is affected from my approach towards it. In a dive it is important, at least for me, to empty my mind, drop all expectations from myself and others. Every moment must be a moment of acceptance. The dive should not be forced against just experienced with sensitivity. During all the time I must be responsive for the signs that tell me to move on or take a new breath of fresh air. Every dive is a new dive and should be treated like a child with no expectations, acceptance and sensitivity. And the same goes for life itself.

    Drop your expectations. Approach life and accept what happens, accept change. Do this with sensitivity and you will find a way. Drop your expectations. Approach your dive and accept what happens, accept change. Do this with sensitivity and you will find a way.

    Be kind to yourself, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-02-27
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Inspiration,  Mindset,  Reflection

    Life no limits

    Every day I learn new things about the World. Every day I learn new things about life and my reality. I have understood more and more that we all live in the same World, but different lifes in different realities. The reality is unique for every single one of us. My reality is not the same as your reality. Your reality is not the same as any other’s. All of us are unique, and it is every single person’s own responsibility to live the reality they want to live.

    Nicole Edensbo freediver. Photo by: Jakob Sandberg
    It is your decision

    What is important to know is that no one else can tell us what to do with our lives. The decision is our own. It is all in our own hands. No one can tell us what to do or where to go. It is every single person’s own decision. We have to realize that we have the power to create and live the reality we want to live. I don’t say it is always easy to make all these decisions, because whatever decision we make there is one thing we have to deal with. That is to face the consequences of the decisions we make.

    People feel safe in pretending that there are limits of what they can do in life.

    Limitations?

    This way of thinking might upset people, but I think people actually like pretending being back bound not able to do what they want because of a job, a relationship, family or friends. People feel safe in pretending that there are limits of what they can do in life. When people understand that everything in life is possible, life gets to big…I guess. It seems that it is better to pretend that there are limits and restrictions because then no one will express any expectations on one self or the others.

    Everyone has the choice to do what they want…and follow the flow of life.

    A provoking life

    I have understood that I provoke some people with these thoughts and the actions I take with this way of thinking. I chose to live free and do what suits me. Some people call it egoistic and irresponsible. Other people say that I am lucky and fortunate to do what I do. They say it in a way as if they could not do something similar, to fulfill their dreams. To do what they truly want. The comments about being egoistic, I can accept, if that is the word they want to use. About being lucky I don’t totally agree. Everyone has the choice to do what they want, to go where the heart wants and follow the flow of life. Again, I don’t say it is always easy to face the consequences of the decisions. Many of us are too attached to places and people. These choices have not only been easy for me, I have faced consequences and dealt with some so far.

    Nicole Edensbo freediver. Photo by: Jakob Sandberg
    A parallell

    What is interesting is that I have seen kind of the same situations in freediving. People feel safe when they come to the training session and say; “I feel a little bit tired today…I will not do a hard training”, “Oh, I ate to much before the training…I cannot do a longer dive”. “My throat is a little bit sore…I think I will take it easy” When they say that I guess that they escape from the situation of having expectations on themselves or expectations from others doing extraordinary things. It is totally ok to not have expectations, everyone does not have to do the longest breath holds or do the longest dives or climb the highest mountains.

    Life is now

    But, if I at the same time say it is OK, why do I bring it up? It is because people seem to long for something else than their actual reality. They long for something different, adventures, nature…life. But, they seem to think that the possibilities in life are limited. Instead of living the life they want, maybe in a different way they indulge in other realities such as series, and social media on daily basis. Some people seem to want to escape the biggest part of the reality living for only a few moments in life. The consequences of making a change in life seem to be too hard to deal with. Therefor people pretend there are distractions in their way to fulfill dreams and live life. People pretend, and this becomes their reality.

    …there are infinite opportunities and countless paths to go.

    In my opinion life is too precious to be lived that way. I think life is meant to be lived every day, every second. Life is meant to be lived fully, every moment. People seem to lose life in the chase of life, “the perfect moments”. What is true is that the perfect moment is now, now and now. We need to wake up, make a decision and live.

    Nicole Edensbo freediver. Photo by: Jakob Sandberg
    Life no limits

    Remember, you are in charge of your own life. No one else can tell you what to do. The decision is yours. In this life there are infinite opportunities and countless paths to go. You are the one in charge, you are the captain of your own ship. What you have to do is to make up your mind and live a life with no limits.

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-02-16
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Diet,  Diet Approach

    Custom diets

    In this post I go further in explaining my approach to my freediving diet and also explaing what kind of feeling I want to achieve in my body before freediving. There is so much to explore when it comes to diet and freediving. The one thing I am already convinced of though is that everyone need their own custom made diet based on
    facts, experience and discovery.

    Nicole Edensbo, diving in Greece. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

    …diet was optimized to what I believed in then. Now it has changed, regarding what and when I eat.

    A changing diet

    In my last post about diet I wrote about my approach to my diet in general. I also wrote that diet, nutrition and health always has interested me. Before doing freediving, I spent a lot of time in the gym lifting weights and, in the tracks, running. My diet was optimized to what I believed in then. Now it has changed, regarding what and when I eat. For me an optimized diet for intense gym training and running is not the same diet as the one optimized for long breath holds and deep diving.

    The photo to the right by: Bastien Soleil

    My diet is based on what I have read, discussed, experienced and discovered myself.

    During some periods of freediving training and preparations before a competition my training does change. Therefore, what I eat and when I eat changes a bit. But overall, I try to keep it the same as long as possible since I want my diet to be a natural part of my lifestyle. I have done the extreme and I have understood it is not good for me. I must stick to diet that is good for me both physically and mentally in the long term. Probably many people would still say the lifestyle is extreme, but I keep it on a level that works for me.

    Unique diets

    My diet is based on what I have read, discussed, experienced and discovered myself. I trust my guts when it comes to diet. Apparently, I do something good since I achieve quite good results within freediving. So, what is the diet I stick to then? What is the optimal freediving diet? Well, the answer is: I am not sure at all. What I am sure of though is that every individual need to discover what is good for themselves, both physically and mentally. We have different bodies and different minds and there is not one truth, on diet, that suits us all. I would say that what the diet every individual need depends on what they need to work on or improve at the moment. Someone might need to lose weight, someone might need to eat more vegetables, at the same time as someone just need to be kind to him or herself and let go of restrictions and rules for a while. What I write in this blog might be true for me today but not for everyone else.

    The feeling to achieve

    So, until now I have written about how diet is individual and that my diet changes due to what kind of training I practice but also what makes me stay healthy both physically and mentally. The feeling I want to achieve to feel good before while diving is calm body in balance. I want to have, just enough energy to do what I should but not more. The feeling I want is a flexible and light feeling giving space for the air I inhale and pack into my lungs. I want nothing to bother me because of something I ate. My body should be able to hold a lot of oxygen but still working slow during my performance. I would say that the situation is a little bit complex for a freediver and that is why freediving and diet is so interesting.

    The feeling I want to achieve…is calm body in balance.

    Nicole Edensbo, breathing up before a CWT-dive at Freediving Club Greece. Photo by: Bastien Soleil
    Deeper into the subject

    In my next post I will go further and deeper in this subject and give concrete examples of what my diet actually contains to achieve this feeling. I did these two introductory posts to introduce you to my thoughts about diet and my diet approach. Because I think that the general diet approach is the most important.

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-02-08
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Diet,  Diet Approach

    My diet approach

    A topic that I often comes up spending time with freedivers is diet. Many freedivers experiment with food and make changes in their diet to achieve better results. Diet, nutrition and health has always interested me. I am aware of what I eat. In this blog post I introduce you to my diet approach.

    Let food be your medicine and medicine be your food.

    Hippocrates, 400 BC
    Eat for the future

    During my time as a freediver I would say that my diet has changed. One thing that has not changed though is my awareness and the fact that I am conscious of every choice I make. If someone asks me about my diet I would say that I am not only eating for today. I am eating for next week, next month. I am eating for the rest of my life. Normally I want everything on plate to fill a purpose. I try to eat food high in vitamins and minerals compared to energy given. Food with empty energy is not what I want. On my plate I want nutritious food that is good for me and kind to my body.

    “Let food be your medicine and medicine be your food.” My freediving diet approach.

    What is most important is to truly believe in the choices that you make.

    Freediving diet?

    I have never heard about this super-freedving-diet that makes everyone being able to do 10 minutes STA and equalize to -100 meters. I guess there are as many freediving diets as there are freedivers on this planet. Some of them more particular about their diet than others. Everybody has their own theories and their own way to approach this issue. No matter if you eat only rawfood, a low-carb-high-fat-diet (LCHF) or if you simply just eat what you like and make no difference between a ruccola, prosciutto or refined carbohydrates. What is most important is to truly believe in the choices that you make. I would say that is the most important when it comes to achievements.

    Let food be your medicine

    “Let food be your medicine and medicine be your food.” is a well-known quote by Hippocrates who lived more than 2400 years ago. That is the way I try to approach my diet. For me what is the most important detail for progress results is to be healthy. For me that is everything. A healthy diet in combination with high quality sleep and physical movement and you are on the right track for a healthy body.

    I have never put a label on my diet, because there is no label to put.

    Alive products

    In general, when I chose what to buy and what to eat I want to be able to see what the product looked like when it was still alive. I normally try not to chose products that need a label on a package to explain to me what is inside. I want to be able to touch and smell what I buy. When it comes to putting my food on the plate I still want it as alive as possible. I therefor prefer cutting my vegetables just before I put them on my plate. Some of you who read this text then probably understand that I prefer not to eat processed and refined food. That is something I try to avoid.

    When I chose what to buy and what to eat I want to be able to see what the product looked like when it was still alive.

    I want my diet to be a natural part of my lifestyle living the life I want.

    My lifestyle

    I have never put a label on my diet, because there is no label to put. I prefer certain food, yes. I avoid certain food, yes. But, I still eat cheese even though the long process of achieving its taste, I still eat meat even though it most of the time was not even close to alive when it ended up on my plate, I still eat sweets even though all the refined products that it contains. I have learned that a diet that is too strict is not good for me. I want my diet to be a natural part of my lifestyle living the life I want. My diet is unique just as I am unique. We are all unique individuals and prefer eating our own way. Find your diet you believe in and I will believe in you.

    Nicole Edensbo together with Nejc Likar, safetydiver and instructor at Freediving Club Greece, Kalamata 2019-10. Photo by: Nicole Virtanen

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-02-01
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Inspiration,  Mindset

    Top photos from 2019 – A story behind: Part 2

    During 2019 I spent a lot of time in the water. That is something that truly shows on the photos that are taken during last year. Some of the photos I have shared on my blog and also at my Instagram account @nicoleedensbo. In this post I present the second part of “Top photos from 2019” and the photos that have been the most appreciated together with the story behind it. I hope you like it!

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    This photo simply shows the birth of a dive…

    Immersion

    This photography is taken during a training in Kalamata. The circumstances for depth training in the bay were amazing. Normally the conditionsto expect were similar to a bath tub. No waves, no currents, just a little bit deeper than a bath tub though. If you ask me what I like about diving it is the whole experience, from waking up in the morning with the mind focused on this one performance and the feeling I bring with me. For me, this photography truly says more than a thousand words. This photo simply shows the birth of a dive and the immersion that have already started.


    Nicole Edensbo during a breathe up training together with the Freediving Club Greece owned by Stavros Kastrinakis. Photo: Nestori Virtanen

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    Beauty of Greece

    The early autumn sun was shining on us as we explored the southern parts of Messinia. We were looking for a beautiful place and what we found was more than one beautiful place. On our trip we stopped several times to breathe the ambience of Greece. We were amazed by the beauty. The magnificent mountains with its calming even so intense atmosphere. The playful sea inviting us as it perpetually showed itself behind the sharp rocks. The olive trees thirsty for water were everywhere, playing with the light, throwing shade under their silver colored leaves. We found the beautiful place. We found the beauty of Greece.

    Nicole Edensbo in Peloponnese, Greece. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    …the beautifully sandy bottom and the crystal clear water were almost irrestistible to not make a photo.

    In the search of darkness

    Another trip in the search of underwater caves in an area called Lakonia. This photo is taken on our way to look for the caves. It is not easy to see but in my left hand I am holding a torch, ready to face the dark of the world in the shade. I guess the beautifully sandy bottom and the crystal clear water were almost irrestistible to not make a photo. This time we didn’t find any big caves, but we had a beautiful swim and many playful dives in the underwater landscapes. We also had the opportunity to take a beautiful photo of a lion fish and its magestic fins with its amazing patterns.

    Nicole Edensbo snorkeling in crystal clear water in Lakonia, Greece. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    Where the sky meets the sea

    During late October I had the opportunity to spend some time with the team members of Freedving Club Greece. The summer had turn into autumn. By the waters of Kalamata harbor the waves were splashing on the concrete foundation of the pier. One of the team members is from my neighbor country, Finland. Nestori is a talented photographer, he was behind the camera as this photo were taken. So, where am I pointing? I am pointing at nothing and everything. I am pointing where the sky meets the sea. I am pointing at the endless horizon.

    Nicole Edensbo Freediver pointing at the horizon from Kalamata harbour. Photo by: Nestori Virtanen

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    I enjoyed every single moment of these training sessions, being in my element. Being free.

    Being free

    This photography is taken after a training session in Kalamata. I did a deeper dive and during the time waiting for the others we amused ourselves by taking photos in a glittery costume. In the upper corner to the left you can actually see the boat on which the set up for deeper was and a little bit further down a darker spot, which is a weight set at five meters for those who prefer breathing air with more oxygen after a dive. I enjoyed every single moment of these training sessions, being in my element. Being free.

    Nicole Edensbo diving in the Mediterranean Sea in the bay of Kalamata. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    Do you want to read more?

    Have you also read the first part of this series? You find it on the on the link below:
    Top photos from 2019 – A story behind: Part 1

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-01-29
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Inspiration,  Mindset

    Top photos from 2019 – A story behind: Part 1

    During 2019 I spent a lot of time in the water. That is something that truly shows on the photos that are taken during last year. Some of the photos I have shared on my blog and also at my Instagram account @nicoleedensbo. In this post I present the photos that have been the most appreciated together with a story behind it. Enjoy!

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    The Cyclop

    This photo is taken in the southern parts of Peloponnese, Greece, in the peninsula called Mani. Mani is one of the most beautiful places on earth with its, somehow, penurious and at the same time so rich and magnificent landscape above the surface. The landscape under the surface was also magnificent and we found an element that was not originally a part of the underwater landscape but created by human hands. At -12 meters there was an anchor bigger than any anchor I had ever seen with which we made some extraordinary shots that can be found on my blog and my Instagram account.

    Nicole Edensbo in the Aegean Sea of Mani, Peleponnese. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    The Calypso Deep has a depth of 5,267 meters. “…speaking of magnificent landscapes.”

    Calypso Deep

    Speaking of magnificent landscapes, I found a place on Earth where I for sure will go back to explore more. This photo was taken while exploring the Ionian Sea on the western part of Peloponnese. The rocks were steep, entering the water creating arches, underwater caves and depths hard to reach with one breath. Not far from here the deepest part of the Mediterranean Sea is situated. The Calypso Deep has a depth of 5,267 meters. “…speaking of magnificent landscapes.”

    Nicole Edensbo freediving in the Ionian Sea, Greece. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    The editing of this picture creates and abstract image with room for fantasy and imagination.

    Imagine

    When looking at this photography one can almost believe it was taken during night time with the moon light shining through the surface landing on the back of the monofin and the back of the diver’s body. That was actually not the case. The photo was taken with the sun in the middle of the sky, in the deep blue waters of Kalamata. The photographer has done an amazing work though. The editing of this picture creates and abstract image with room for fantasy and imagination.

    Nicole Edensbo under water in the bay of Kalamata. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    Above Surface

    This was one of the first photos Bastien took of me. We met during the Depth World Championship in Villefranche sur Mer, France. We had a great connection which ended up in a lot of experiences together. This photo is taken in the Peloponnese, Greece when barely knew each other. I wanted to jump into the water but as it shows, the water had quite a lot of movements and the visibility was not the best. We stayed above the surface and Bastien had a clear vision in his mind and I think we achieved just that.

    Nicole Edensbo by the Mediterranean Sea in the Peleponnese. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    One can almost feel the movement of the water and touch the intensity of the situation.

    National Record Dive

    Quite exhausted coming up from a -77meter Free Immersion (FIM) dive. To be honest, this was not one of my favourite dives when it comes to diving experience, but I did it. I broke the Swedish national record in FIM. I did this dive after three months of intense freediving training and competitions including the World Championship in depth. My feeling truly shows in this phography; exhausted but relieved. I love the dramatic scene of the whole image from the weather conditions to the facial expressions. One can almost feel the movement of the water and touch the intensity of the situation.

    Nicole Edensbo breaking the Swedish national record in Free Immersion with a dive of -77 meters. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

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    Do you want to read more?

    If you want to read the second part of this series just click on the link below:
    Top photos from 2019 – A story behind: Part 2

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-01-25
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Inspiration,  Mindset,  Reflection

    Enter life!

    Do you ever find yourself lost in time and space doing what you love? Have you ever fully entered the world of your passion? What is your true passion?

    What is your true passion?
    Nicole Edensbo freediving in the Mediterranean sea. Photo by: Bastien Soleil
    What is important?

    Maybe you have never thought of that, or maybe you have. Maybe you have found yourself thinking of what your true passion and purpose in life is but not finding the answer because the time ran out. The time ran out because there was work to do at the office, or you had to go to buy that shirt for this dinner or you needed to create that outstanding post on Instagram.

    We lose touch with ourselves in this machine called life.

    Our minds are so occupied by everything happening in the world around us. We find it so important that we don’t prioritize time to discover ourselves. There are too many impressions that distract us from being able to hear, listen to and consider our own voice with its message. Work seems to be more important than living our own lives. Status and relationships overshadows our individual needs. We are so busy to create and realize the image of a perfect life we think we are supposed to live that we forget about ourselves. We lose touch with ourselves in this machine called life.

    It is your choice

    I would say it is rare that people follow their voices, their passion and their dreams because of the structure of the world we live in. The thing is just that no one except our selves can know what that voice is telling us. We are fully responsible for our own lives and cannot blame anyone around us for the choices that we make. There are no musts in life living in this world. The only thing we have to be prepared of though, are the consequences of the choices and prioritizations that we do.

    …maybe that is…what we need, to not have ha certain traced path in which we can go blind.

    Though, doing something different, breaking the patterns of our society has a price. The different path is not as straight and clear as the one of the society. The path outside the map we know about might need more effort and awareness for every step taken. And maybe, that is exactly what we need, to not have ha certain traced path in which we can go blind. But one, where we have to keep our eyes opened and be present in every moment.

    Keep your eyes opened.
    Nicole Edensbo freediving in Greece. Photo by: Bastien Soleil
    Realize your dream

    I have talked to so many people that speak of their passion as a dream, and only a dream. Dreams that are not possible to live, that are not possible to realize. The thought of that the dreams are not achievable is because they know that everything has a price. Most of the time it is difficult to have the cake and eat it.

    …your dreams will not be dreams anymore, but your reality.

    Listen to this part inside of you as it speaks, maybe it is not loud, but it is there. Your true voice. It might be hard to hear it because if the noise from the outside world with its distracting blur of “duties”, “musts” and “media” of all kind. The voice of the world is so loud and almost unescapable. To find the quietness that we need from time to time there seems to be a deserted island needed to find peace and quiet. Start to pay attention and sooner or later you will hear it. The voice. Follow it, follow life.

    What do I want to say?

    What I want with this text is to encourage to live life. What I also want to say with thisis that everything is possible. I want to encourage you to live your life every moment. You just have to listen, be brave and believe and things will fall into place. When you truly believe your dreams will come true, and your dreams will not be dreams anymore, but your reality.

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2020-01-19
    Villefranche-sur-Mer, France

  • Depth,  Mindset,  Pool,  Training & Competition

    Top 10 blog posts 2019

    In this post I have listed the top ten read posts i my blog during the year of 2019. In the first place comes “High ambitions & indifference”. A post I wrote early this year, trying to explain the situation of being a person with ambitions higher than what is good for one self. In the top there are also texts from the experience during the Swedish Championship in pool freediving and excercices to learn how to keep the breath longer and a lot more.

    I wish you all a happy new year!
    …and always remember:

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

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    #1 “High ambitions & indifference”

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    #2 “Four times gold, 1000 times feelings!”
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    #3 “Lär dig hålla andan längre – Del 1: Kunskap”
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    #4 “First competition day is over, I go to bed with a smile!”
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    #5 “Lifechanger”
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    #6 “Acceptance”
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    #7 “Att äta medvetet”
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    #7 “Mindset & Mindfulness – Föredrag på temat hållbarhet”
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    #8 “Lär dig hålla andan längre – Del 2: Andetaget
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    #9 “My Freediving Story”
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    #10 “Listen & Live”

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2019-12-27
    Åsbo, Sweden

  • Mindset,  Reflection

    The Voice of Change

    Have you ever heard the voice of change? Maybe you hear it, listen to it and even follow it. Maybe you hear it but force against it, controlling the world around you.

    Need for change

    Everything changes all the time, all the time everything is moving. From the biggest mountain to the smallest atom, from the most violent storm to the gentle breath of a living being. Everywhere there is movement. Sometimes the change is so small that we cannot even see it, or so slow that we cannot percieve it. Things are changing, inside of you and inside of me. I think we forget about this sometimes. Being to busy doing other things than to hear, listen and follow to the voice of change. Instead we tend to cling to a comfortable, static subsistence.

    Photo by: Bastien Soleil

    The cracking hurts, but the voice of change is so strong. Determined it tells me to move…

    What we don’t understand is that that kind of subsistense is just an imaginary creation in our lifes that needs to be controlled and forced. It has nothing to do with the world around us. That subsistence could be comfortable in a world that does not change. But that is not the way it is. Instead this world strives for balance with all of its energy. Balance means change, balance means movement. To antagonise that enery there is the same amount of energy needed. Sooner or later the imaginary subsistence will crack from all the tension around. The crack has different shapes. Sometimes disguised as an imbalance in relations, in the body, or mind.

    Move on

    I have started to try to listen and follow this voice of change instead of fighting the energy back. Instead I follow that stream of energy. I try to follow even as the voice seems to lead me in the opposite direction of my comfortable, static, imaginary subsistense. This is when the discussion starts within me.
    At one hand, what do I find in the existence of following the wind?
    On the other hand, what do I experience being stationed in one place?
    What am I willing to sacrifice?
    How does this affect people around me?

    Photo by: Bastien Soleil

    The cracking hurts, but the voice of change is so strong. Determined it tells me to move, to follow even the smallest wind, to gather with other winds. Together, being in the middle of the treasure of life.

    As I follow the never ending voice of change I percieve the treasure of life;…

    Photo by: Bastien Soleil
    The treasure of life

    I have understood, being dynamic not attached to a certain place, certain people or certain situations make me see the beauty of the very moment more easily. This happens when I don’t use my attention, my energy to force my subsistense. As I follow the never ending voice of change I percieve the treasure of life; The very moment, in the wonder of the Universe.

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2019-12-17
    Åsbo, Sweden

  • Depth,  Training & Competition

    An extraordinary season – PB almost tripled in depth

    Coming home to Sweden has been wonderful. I am happy I followed my voice inside that said: “…it is enough for this time, you need time to relax and recover from this summers adventures“. This summer has been a blast and I am happy I ended the depth season on top…or the opposite, depends on how you see it.

    I almost tripled my PB in CWT and I was coming closer and closer to the pressure of 10 bars.

    First season in the deep

    I started this depth season with a personal best of 38 meters with bifins in my diving history. A depth I reached during a vacation in the Maldives 2017. What made me not go deeper was the sandy bottom of the atolle. My only official result was 30 meters CWT, a dive I did in a competition Sweden 2017. CNF and FIM where the two disciplines I hadn’t even tried before. I started this season with some dives to 20-25 meters with my bifins.

    Training & Competition

    My training with Freediving Club Greece in Kalamata started in July. During my first competition I did a dive of 52 meters CWTB which ment a Swedish national record in the discipline. My training led to a fast progression in depth for me in all disciplines. By some reason there was nothing stopping me. Breathhold was fine, I felt strong, equalization worked, I just kept on going. I attended to several competitions during the summer and I had the opportunity to meet fantastic people within the freediving world.

    Savvas Savva and Sasha Jeremic that I met for the first time in Cyprus depth games in Limassol, Cyprus in July.
    This was during the after party of the Cyprus depth games together with Irina Smolentseva, Thibault Guignes, Nadia Borozdenkova and Oksana Molchanova. Wonderful people!

    I also met some Swedish faces Mats Tybell and Oscar Särnholm. Vicky Brown, I met during the WC in Villefranche Sur Mer, such an amazing woman!

    Together with Irina Smolentseva and Bastien Soleil at Sailing Tortuga, the katamaran that at the momen is in the middle of the atlantic following the wind.
    On the Sailing Tourtuga together with the owner Ruediger and the athlete Irina with heading towards Cannes with Villefranche Sur Mer in the backround.
    On the boat back from training with the team of Freediving Club Greece (FCG)! <3
    Isabela Sanchez Aran with her coach at the WC! Isabela is also a member of the crew in FCG.
    AIDA depth World Championship 2019

    During the AIDA depth World Championship in Villefranche Sur Mer, in September, I did three dives I am very proud of. I came to the WC to do beautiful, happy dives with clear surface protocols. I got a lot of good critics for my technique from the comentators and athletes around me. In the combination of points I ended up on the fourth place!

    If you are interested you can find my three dives through the links in the end of the post.

    Nicole Edensbo, National record FIM -77m. Photo by: Bastien Soleil

    …the judges gave me a white card and I had broke the Swedish national record in CNF.

    National Records in FIM & CNF

    After the WC I came back to Kalamata for more depth training, and in the begining of October it was time for competition again. I broke the Swedish national record in FIM the 6th of October with a dive of 77 meters. Five days later I chose to do a dive of 52 meters in the discipline CNF. I came up, did the surface protocol and the judges gave me a white card and I had broke the Swedish national record in CNF.

    Nicole Edensbo, CNF -48m, AIDA Depth World Championship 2019. Photo by: Guillaume Estève

    My CNF-dive was my 15th competition dive and after that I kept on training. I started to get close to my 50th training session. My depth progressed almost every day and I was high on endorfines all summer and autumn. The rush never ended. I almost tripled my PB in CWT and I was coming closer and closer to the pressure of 10 bars.

    Nicole Edensbo, CWT -73m, AIDA Depth World Championship 2019. Photo by: Guillaume Estève

    I was supposed to go to a paradise island but I tried to find options to shorten my trip. Something was wrong.

    Changed plans

    I was planning to attend a competition in Dominica in November, but there where many things telling me not to go and especially my body and mind. I realized I tried to minimize my stay to as few days as possible. I was supposed to go to a paradise island but I tried to find options to shorten my trip. Something was wrong. After many days of thinking and discussing with my self and the people around me I decided not to go. I felt such a relief at the same time as a part of me couldn’t understand how I could cancel my participation.

    Home in Sweden

    This was the best thing I could do for my self this autumn and I am so happy and proud I came to this decision and followed it. If I would have gone I would have been competing today, with energy I wouldn’t have had.

    At Nyhetsmorgon, TV4 together with Sharon Lavie and Anders Philblad.

    Coming back home has been lovely, both television and radio has shown interest for the sport and my achievements. Now I have time to relax for a while before I continue my journey in the depths.

    If you are interested in the programs in television and radio you can find the interviews through the links below.

    Nicole Edensbo, FIM -68m, AIDA Depth World Championship 2019. Photo by: William Rhamey
    Video of the dives in the World Championship

    CWT dive

    FIM dive

    CNF dive

    TV & Radio interviews

    TV4 – Nyhetsmorgon

    Radiointerview (my interview starts 2h 43min into the program)

    Be kind to your self, be kind to others.

    Nicole Edensbo, 2019-11-24
    Gothenburg, Sweden